Messing with Meds to Get Manic?

Michelle, a member of our Forums, shares her frustrations. “Have you been able to subsist at sub-mania by tweaking your drugs? I know a bunch of people will tell me to knock it off and get with my pdoc’s program, but I don't care. I don't want to. I'm not manic, nor even hypo-manic … yet. I just want that little boost, a taste of ‘normal’, a vacation from depression taking all the color out of my life, causing food to have no taste, feeling worthless enough I want to end it so I can go on to the next phase of existence. Anybody have similar feelings?”