Bipolar Disorder Is ... Fighting for Control

To me, Bipolar Disorder is having to monitor my conversations constantly to see if I am too loud or saying weird things ... it's having my brain totally freeze at the first hint of stress, panicking because I am unable to think or concentrate. Bipolar Disorder is feeling like everyone tolerates me instead of liking me ... Bipolar Disorder is having to fight and fight to have impulse control, so I don't start feating on people or yelling at them or breaking things ... it's starting too many things I can't finish or never starting things at all ... feeling like I am about to jump out of my own skin, or feeling so numb that I can't feel an emotion, good or bad.

It's being reminded every morning and every night that I am different - every time I have to take the pills that enable me to HAVE a life.