Bipolar Disorder Is ... Curse and Blessing

by CJ

To me, Bipolar Disorder is my curse and my blessing. It is the source of my creativity and the fountain of my intelligence, while being the source of my despair and the ruination of my family line - both those who have gone before and those who follow me. It is what makes me whole and what makes me incomplete. It is my master and my slave - demanding respect, worship and nurturing when it is in control and cowering in abject misery and terror when I am in control. It has made me what I am, and only in learning to speak its language and harness its power have I managed not only to survive, but to thrive.