Wild cycling for years finally stabilized
I like the idea of the 2000 study that two parts of the bipolar brain are bigger than other people's. My theory there is that it makes us extremely sensitive. Prior to meds, loud noises caused me to …
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I'm the moody oddball
I agree that rapid cycling is definitely exhausting. It leaves me no time to form a intimate relationship with anyone. I no longer go out socially. I might add, I am about to change this. My peers at…
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I can't even trust myself to go shopping
I am incredibly lucky that I have the support of an amazing family. Over the years there must have been times when they hated me. A middle-aged, professional mum of 2, I would disappear,hitching lift…
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From giggling to angry to depressed and back again
I can cycle within hours from mania to depression. My highs can make me do stupid things. Like for instance I went to a lake one time with my family and all of a sudden I got really high and started …
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Rapid cycling makes you feel like a freak
Rapid cycling for me can be laughing and crying in the same sentence. I have always done this and I thought this was normal for exceptional folk like me. I thought I stood out with my range of emotio…
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I cycle every 12 to 72 hours
I get into rages and am aggressive. I throw things when irritable. When depressed,I feel hopeless, and like there is nothing to live for. I get irritable then, too. People don't know what mood I am …
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I can't get away from myself
My moods can change in minutes or hours. It's hard for my family to tell when the change will come. I am a dr. jeckyl/mr. hyde for sure. I can get very negative and suicidal and anytime I can just po…
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Mentally exhausted
since my hypo manic state is more dominant at work i can be very productive while at the same time have difficulty holding and keeping long term relationships. my marriage has always had intimate iss…
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Find good doctors and the right meds
My rapid cycling ruined my 15 year marriage. I divorced my husband, overdrew my bank account terribly, had several cars repossessed, quit a great job. It just goes on and on. I even married a man who…
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Learning to recognize cycles
I too, like many of you, can never count on myself.I belong to a BP forum, where I have been told by the moderator, supposedly a mental health professional, that I am nothing more than a Borderline.H…
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My rapid cycling keeps getting worse
I'm a mess and I blame it on these daily mood swings, although it is my own fault for not being in control of my medications and taking them daily I feel like meds are not a cure all. How is it okay …
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I think the symptoms are getting worse
Full blown mania always leads to paranoia and psychosis and eventually to the most devastating depressions, suicidal tendencies and just a complete self hatred that is always only a heartbeat away. A…
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Driven like a motor...
I recently had an episode. I accelerated from being "blah", and my boyfriend recognized it. I was blah getting to the grocery store, to becoming absolutely manic in just a few hours, feeling like I w…
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Ultra-ultra-ultra Rapid Cycles
The list goes on and on. This is why I have very few friends as, the people who are drawn to me are those of like mind which creates a toxic combination of impulsive behavior run wild. I was diagnose…
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I Cycle Within Twenty-four Hours
When manic, I get really weird. It drives my mom crazy when I laugh and giggle and I tease a lot. No one knows when my moods will change. People have to kind of walk on eggshells around me. Socially…
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