Mania Got me Involuntary Treatment Order
- When I was Manic, I ran away from home and secreted myself in a Motel. Once there, I bragged about my Revolutionary Book that would Save the World. And I refused to let the cleaning staff into my room. A week later a team of Police Officers, paramedics and Psyche Doctors escorted me to the Psyche Ward, where I had to stay under an Involuntary Treatment Order. Allen and Unwin are considering Publishing my story, "Me and Her:a Memoir of Madness." http://www.karentyrrell.com
- —Guest Karen Tyrrell
hi
- I have just been told I have bipolar after so long. I have not ready to deal with it yet. I guess it's pretty good or bad what ever way you look at it. I know its not as bad as it sounds. Good in some ways. It took 10 years.
- —Guest johanna
Learning the Hard Way
- I have been in debt for a long time because I was an impulsive buyer, I bought an expensive car from an online loan and thought I was doing great, ended up filing bankruptcy for the second time. married a man I picked up hitch-hiking when I was 19, he was 38 and very abusive, ran away one night when the cops arrested him for hitting me and my child and lost everything I had, which wasn't very much, divorced later on. Previously married and had a few affairs, also chatted with a man overseas then began calling him and ended up with a couple phone bills at over $1000.00 . Almost got fired at my job several years ago because I lost it and used foul language when I yelled at a few students who were gang affiliated, just had said the first thing that came to my mind out of anger. Lot of lessons learned the hard way.
- —Guest destiny
I'll do it tomorrow and shopping sprees
- I have done many things I am ashamed of when hypomanic and depressed but there are two things that have hurt me the most. One is procrastinating until I am in deep trouble. Then I have to scramble to fix everything I put off. I also spend my bill money on things I want because I feel I deserve them. I am currently in debt and don't see a way out this time. The first spending spree happened 8 yrs ago after my son died from cancer. I bought my surviving son and myself anything we wanted. I wasn't diagnosed with bipolar at the time. Major depression was my diagnosis for 7 yrs. The 8th yr anniversary of my son's death was my latest spree. Alot of the money is spent on painting my house over and over until I am out of my hypomanic state and go into a depressive episode. I don't have a job right now so I can't pull myself out of financial trouble this time. I am supposed to be filling out applications for jobs right now. Oh well, I'll do it tomorrow.
- —Guest Linda
poor judgement
- I decided to go to graduate school at the age of 53 just because I felt like I should have an advanced degree. I also started a new job working in a hospital when I had not worked in a hospital for 25 years. The hospital that hired me also showed bad judgement! Anyway, the job was a disaster, I was let go, and I failed out of graduate school at the same time. I tried to do too much...I thought I could do anything I wanted to do. I was on my meds and seeing both my p-doc and therapist during the whole time. I wish they would have told me I was headed for a disaster. They let me find out for myself. It cost me thousands of dollars and a lot of grief.
- —Guest helengg
bad judgement
- i lost my job, my house and some family members respect because of bad judgement. I finally was diagnosed but still have trouble with poor judgment sometimes i guess it never goes away.
- —gettingtherefinally
$5000.00
- I bid 5000.00 at an auction for a trip while we were selling and buying a new house without my husband knowing. I then called my mother and asked her to lend me 5k - crazy! I called the organizataion the next day and told them how sorry I was but I couldn't purchase it without telling my husband and I knew we didn't have the money and he would certainly disown me... he still doesn't know about this...I wish I were able to just tell people what I have... I still try to hide it or call it something else.. why is that??
- —Guest pppffff
Unwanted Gifts and Presents
- Got pregnant ending in abortion then HPV positive and who knows how long I've had it. Had cervical cancer due to the HPV.
- —Guest ex muddled mind
ashamed ?
- got married 6 months after meeting the guy -I was crazy- went out with a guy I wouldn't even look at if my head had been straight - this happened twice - the worst part I can't even feel shame it's like a dream it's as if it's someone else that I watched doing this . I mean I'm not completely nuts lol I know what I did but as if I was in a dream . I'm always scared I might do something crazy like this again . This fear keeps me from dating I just don't want to live this craziness again so I accept I have to be alone -haven't dated for the last 14 yrs and it's ok . Some feelings I can't cope with I go into a manic phase .
- —wasnt_me
the wrong guy
- many years ago I was in treatment for addiction. It was my first time there. Our group was told to not interact with the other group who had been through treatment many times. Well, feeling hypersexual I seduced a man in that group. That was the end of my normal life for several years. I almost lost my life to his hands. As a result I suffer from anxiety and ptsd sometimes. I still cannot ride the bus as I am fearful he is still in town. I'd like to say that it only happened once but it was just the last in a series of bad relationships. Now I feel healed except for occasional bad dreams. I am grateful for where I am today due to the help of a team of people, supportive family and friends. It helps that my meds have greatly reduced my desire to seek out such relationships now. I still have an interest in finding a companion but it is not currently in the forefront of my mind.
- —cribwinner27
pre-diagnosis
- I gave away a vehicle, thousands of dollars, maxed out 2 credit cards, spent a week at a $250 a night bed and breakfast cause I wanted to live there, spent another week at an extended stay hotel in a rough part of town and held a knife at the throat of a crack head, broke out all the windows in my house with a golf club, spent a week in jail manic out of my mind finally ending up in a psychiatric hospital. This is clearly way worse than bad judgment and kind of the icing on the proverbial cake. I wish I'd realized I was bipolar so, so long ago. All that happened 3 years ago and my life is still very much in recovery mode. I think the worst part of it all is the dear friends I've lost, the upside is the true friends I do have who keep me grounded today.
- —khvizda
the scary results of mania
- When I was in my mid-20's I landed in a psych unit. They said manic-depression, I didn't understand. Fast forward 10 yrs. I was dealing with a soon to be ex-husband who had a history of violence. He was making it very hard for me to keep my son. I was losing my house. My world was falling apart. The only thing in my life that was good was my job. I loved it. I was running a homeless shelter. It was out of state and I traveled quite a bit every day. I needed less and less sleep, did more and more. I began an affair with one of my clients, who was an ex-con. The sky was an intense blue, music moved me, sex had never been better. It was like being high, and I kept wondering what was happening to me. I attributed it to being in love. I took my lover out of the shelter and we went to a weekend get away. I left my car in the shelter's parking lot. When I reported to work Monday morning I was confronted by my superiors. I was fired. Did the same thing at next job. Then crashed.
- —Guest Anniem
Manic
- I ripped my kids out of school and moved to a town that I've found I cannot stand. It was a Thursday and moved that Friday. Quit my meds and fell into a serious depression(worse than normal)because now I'm stuck here. Got back on my meds, but the damage is done. I look back and think of how irrational I was but I really thought I knew what was doing. I have a list a mile long of bad judements but this is the most recent and lasting one. :(
- —Guest maria
Bad Judgement
- It seems to be a recurring theme concerning making mistakes around relationships. I to have ruined some good marriages and relationships. Which in turn has finally drove my friends away from me and my children. Sad but true. I am with a good man now, I usually picked abusive men. However, I may never make it up to my children.
- —Guest Avalon
Bad Judgement
- I had the most wonderful ob/gyn in the world, who prescribed me Darvocet to control the pain of my severe endometriosis. I became addicted, and one day he would no longer refill my prescription. I completely lost my temper, and called everyone in the office a**holes. Conseqeuntly, I received a letter from my doctor stating that he would no longer see me as a patient. That was 3 years ago, and I have been unable to find an ob/gyn I like since.
- —MegansMama
